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People who live alone - how are you getting on?

I've been fortunate as Portugal has only had two sets of lockdown ( confinement they call it here) the first at the original outbreak and the second from January. In between restrictions but bars, cafes and restaurants open which is where I do most of my socialising tbh when they are open. We don't have bubbles here but I tend to only go to one neighbours house when we have confinement anyway. I see other friends when I'm out shopping or walking and stop for a chat. My other neighbours have been good. They've brought round some food for me on occasions and they always say hello and ask if everything is alright. Obviously communication is a bit limited as my Portuguese isnt good to say a great deal, and nothing in depth.

I sometimes get a little anxious about the huge barriers ( very few if any direct flights, two covid tests and 10 days in a quarantine hotel and the nearest one is in Birmingham) in returning to England for my cancer check but the positive side is that Ive never had any signs in the previous five years and show no symptoms ( its bladder cancer so normally it would be blood) . I haven't seen my eldest daughter for well over a year , my youngest for just over a year although I was lucky that my son came over in June and he visited me twice when I was self isolating in the UK after a minor op in November.. I have to put all these on one side as they are not negotiable . I chat on the internet or on the phone with friends in and family in the UK and watch films , TV and football, now the weathers better I do some gardening, a few walks .Obviously the bonus here is that the weather is picking up slowly so some days you can sit outside and I have a garden. Next month I might even make it to the beach for a mooch around. I don't feel too isolated tbh and I've got dogs which are always company of sort but do miss catching up face to face and finding out whats happens locally. in all those random encounters you have when the bars etc are open. To be honest I wouldn't swap here with England although I did like the situation where I could have the best of both worlds.

I stopped full time work five years ago and the last part time work I did was online ,with the exception of three meetings in the UK, over a year ago. I do dodgy Tv boxes and firesticks for some beer money here but the confinements and restrictions have reduced that to a trickle as my main customers are English and a lot of them have stopped coming over or have gone back . So I'm used to finding things to do and have a little routine that I stick to and I'm happy with that. In the first confinement I used to listen to a Portuguese langauge skills thing everyday and practised on Dualingo but I havent touched that this time. I was reminded to go back to that when I met this Portuguese woman I know in the supermarket this week that i like and just didnt have the words to say anything apart from 'how are you ,I havent seen you for a long time, its cold, I am in the house everyday' which didnt quite make thegame changing impression I hoped our unexpected encounter might bring. . Hopefully my new intention of trying to improve my Portuguese wont go the same way as my other one of improving my baking skills which set a new world record of repeat failures.

I'm not bothered about a relationship , the last one I had was three years with an alcoholic, emotionally draining and very destructive. Wouldn't mind a bit of female company , which I have when women friends come over and visit but that's off for a good few months unfortunately. Think I probably ideally want a situation where I am fond of somebody and vice versa more than anything .
 
I can't say it's going well here. I'm very used to spending a lot of time on my own through various chronic illnesses but really I've had enough now.

Bubbling isn't working for me as I'm bubbling with my mother which has no significant benefits to me and puts pressure on me to go over there, which is half a day each time effectively, usually the only half day I might have been able to see a friend.

The whole going for a walk with a friend thing isn't working either. It's always too difficult for any one of a number of reasons - covid concerns, distance, currently the weather, having to see my mother...

Basically I'm Billy Nomates.
It's tough. My pre lockdown life was all about social contact - and lots of it - and travelling and interacting with busy crowds and meeting new people all the time.

I've had just one normal face to face conversation in six weeks. I've only been vaguely drunk once in all that time too. I'm bored shitless.

Daytimes can be OK - a trip to the supermarket is at least something to do and I was actually looking forward to today's trip to the park for a Covid test, but the dark waves of gloom can come flooding in as soon as the sun goes down. I find some evenings really tricky.

It's too cold to meet anyone in the park for a can, so apart from the odd brief chat to someone I've passed in the park, I've been treading a fairly lonely path for all of 2021. I miss cafes and pubs like you won't believe and crave having a few drinks with friends.
 
but the dark waves of gloom can come flooding in as soon as the sun goes down. I find some evenings really tricky.
It's been similar for me during this latest lockdown. I'm usually quite happy in my own company, but now that it's being forced on my I'm struggling with it a bit. I'm bubbled with my dad for practical reasons, but that's mostly a load of extra hassle with not many benefits for me :facepalm:

The first two lockdowns were mostly fine as the weather was great so I was out a lot and had plenty of stuff to keep me busy. This one is a bit different as I'm pretty much back to working full time now, so that plus ongoing parent issues mean I don't have as much free time now. The free time I do have mostly gets wasted as I don't have much motivation to do much. My work hours are reasonably flexible so I'm still managing to get out for a walk most days, but even that's getting boring now. There's only so many routes from my house to the park or river and I've done them all now :hmm:

I do have a few people I check in with fairly regularly for distanced walks/chats, but evenings are becoming increasingly difficult.
 
i've never been gregarious. i live alone now as i have for most of my adult life, so i haven't had much different to cope with. (in fact, the apartment next to mine has been empty since last april, which is a blessing.) and the lockdowns you limeys speak of didn't happen here in the same way apparently. public transport won't allow you on without a mask, and most businesses won't let you in without one. but at no point have we in nyc been required to stay in, nor even to wear a mask when walking the streets. to-go businesses have never been shut. my workplace (a school) has been open since september, with protocols. also, it's been frigid this past month with abnormal amounts of snow and meeting-up would be curtailed anyway.
 
Used the dating apps during lockdown just for someone to damn speak too! Never met anyone for a date) tho did in the summer). They can be ok to pass the time but yes also have grim sides. I'm in no place to start a relationship, don't even want one, and I say that from the start. But it's just nice to find out out about someone esp if you find them attractive.

I've gone off them again, the apps that is, for some reason. I was getting a bit addicted to them in early lockdown tbh
 
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This is about sex, not an important issue for all single people obvs just some, but I thought despite the self absorbedness of it, it was good, for throwing light on just one of the ways alone-livers have been left out of the government’s messaging and thinking here.
Really noticing my lack of labido. Almost down to zero. Just nowt there. Makes me realise how much sexual energy there is in normal life. I have never felt so empty of sex drive.
 
It's tough. My pre lockdown life was all about social contact - and lots of it - and travelling and interacting with busy crowds and meeting new people all the time.

I've had just one normal face to face conversation in six weeks. I've only been vaguely drunk once in all that time too. I'm bored shitless.

Daytimes can be OK - a trip to the supermarket is at least something to do and I was actually looking forward to today's trip to the park for a Covid test, but the dark waves of gloom can come flooding in as soon as the sun goes down. I find some evenings really tricky.

It's too cold to meet anyone in the park for a can, so apart from the odd brief chat to someone I've passed in the park, I've been treading a fairly lonely path for all of 2021. I miss cafes and pubs like you won't believe and crave having a few drinks with friends.
Same here. Same here. Almost exact descrip of where I'm at.
 
Hasn't been fun for me, marriage ended shortly before lockdown. So living alone and not in work. Definitely don't like the concept of remote working. Since selling my house, I've been moving between airbnbs, most of my stuff is in a mate's garage. I just have what I can fit in my boot. Oddly the moving has helped, at least I'm stuck in a different space each month or so!
 
I am living back living with my folks, for depressing and life changing reasons (divorce). they have a little outhouse thing in the garden which I have made my home, put my pictures up, the kids who stay for 3 nights a week have little roll out mattresses. We, i.e. my kids, me, and my folks are like one multi generational house hold, but it doesn't stop the constant nag of fear that we are going to kill my folks by bringing something home. But it's worked really well, in many respects. We've all got on with it.

I hate the boredom. That's the worst part. Nothing really to look forward to except this fantasy of a freer life a few months away (and it always seems just a 'few months away'). I am not a sit at home and watch TV type. before lockdown if i was bored I would go clubbing on my own! go for a drive at 9pm down to the coast just for somethign to do! i had a small group of mates who were similarly mid life divorcees and we were really celebrating our new found status. i used to sit in cafes till closing time, either with friends or on my own, reading. i'd go for meals out on my own or with mates. i used to go to Millwall games up and down the country. Never a dull moment. i always seemed to fill my life, married or not, with stuff that gave meaning and pleasure. All gone!!!!

just the grifters on youtube and the tack on netflix left "to do"! it sounds so very "first world" but if you think about it if that truly is all you have left to do then that's pretty macarbe. of course you have this 'oh i learnt to play the guitar like bob dylan and can am now fluent in chinese" but that's not in my make up either. If you think of our options of what we can "do" then really it is like a sort of prison (nowehre near the real thing of course). it's been really hard for everyone. and i think i'm one of the ones who has it fairly easy. it's very sad what is happening out there right now.
 
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I've been oddly fine, despite having very little in-person contact with anyone beyond those who serve me in shops.

The cat definitely helps.
I don't go to the shops and I don't have a cat. I have no personal contact apart from 3-4 telephone calls in the last year.
But I'm fine too. I've got used to being on my own most of the time since I retired eight years ago.
I usually went away somewhere sunny in January/February for the last 18 years at least to avoid the darkness and cold. I couldn't this year, but I'm finding it ok. Maybe I will stay in London during winter even if we are allowed to travel in future.

Edit: And on the plus side I haven't had to deal with any racist micro (and not so micro) aggression for the last year.
 
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tony.c glad to hear you are surviving. I am also.

Though I would prefer to be thriving rather than surviving. :)

Last year I got so into my Covid-19 routine that the end of the year arrived and I had hardly taken any holiday so I had most of December off.

There was hardly any point because I couldn't go anywhere, but there you are.
 
I thought I'd distract myself and fire up this natty tiny ScanSnap photo scanner that I was given years ago. I installed it with no probs, grabbed a beer - the third time I've had any alcohol since Jan 1st - and picked up a random selection of images.

Third pic in was a family from my step brother's marriage about 9 years ago. They've now split up.

The photo featured four smiling happy people - Ex girlfriend (hasn't spoken to me in 5 years), sister in law (died last year), my brother and my Mum (died a few years ago).

WELL THAT CERTAINLY CHEERED ME UP! :facepalm: 😂
 
I took the last photos of my FiL, before a risky heart op, I knew when I took the photos it might be the last time I would see him alive and so it turned out to be because he didn't survive the surgery.

What I found inexcusable was the hospital didn't tell him to get his affairs in order before the op, they knew not everyone survived it, he died without a will which caused his remaining family all sorts of problems.

The hospital had bigged themselves up saying that they did so many of these (it was a heart valve replacement) that they were pretty much routine. This gave him and his immediate family a misplaced confidence.
 
I've been oddly fine, despite having very little in-person contact with anyone beyond those who serve me in shops.

The cat definitely helps.

Yes, I've done really well in lockdowns. Not been a lot different for me tbh, last 20 years I've been here I've mainly lived alone and don't have a car so haven't really been anywhere.

I've realized recently though that the dog has made a real difference. She's actually not much of a dog as dogs go - not really friendly because she was pestered when she was a puppy so doesn't like too much contact - but she does follow me round a bit now - she always went off on her own but now she's gone deaf she likes to be in the same room as me. Also gets me out walking twice a day, and nice that when she trots ahead she turns round to make sure I'm following. Don't meet many people walking like you're supposed to if you have a dog because she was so aggressive when I got her so I avoided other dogs. Loads better now but I'm still very wary.

I wouldn't have done as well if she hadn't been here. Does make me realize that she means that I don't really live alone as in thread title.
 
Yes, I've done really well in lockdowns. Not been a lot different for me tbh, last 20 years I've been here I've mainly lived alone and don't have a car so haven't really been anywhere.

I've realized recently though that the dog has made a real difference. She's actually not much of a dog as dogs go - not really friendly because she was pestered when she was a puppy so doesn't like too much contact - but she does follow me round a bit now - she always went off on her own but now she's gone deaf she likes to be in the same room as me. Also gets me out walking twice a day, and nice that when she trots ahead she turns round to make sure I'm following. Don't meet many people walking like you're supposed to if you have a dog because she was so aggressive when I got her so I avoided other dogs. Loads better now but I'm still very wary.

I wouldn't have done as well if she hadn't been here. Does make me realize that she means that I don't really live alone as in thread title.

I had a staff that was great in the house and great with kids but outside she was a fucking nightmare, would snap and growl at everything. Used to take her to these fields at 6.30 in the morning hoping there weren't many dog walkers out so I could throw her a ball or a frisbee which she loved and every now and again someone would be out with a poodle or something bouncing around being all hello birds hello trees wanting to join in and I'd be like 'please keep away, please'
 
I had a staff that was great in the house and great with kids but outside she was a fucking nightmare, would snap and growl at everything. Used to take her to these fields at 6.30 in the morning hoping there weren't many dog walkers out so I could throw her a ball or a frisbee which she loved and every now and again someone would be out with a poodle or something bouncing around being all hello birds hello trees wanting to join in and I'd be like 'please keep away, please'

Yes I've noted in the dog thread but it does wonders for your reaction times :)

I'm really pleased how she's ended up though. Bribery with treats has sorted it (touch wood). She's not attacked a dog for it must be two years now and that was a rottie who stole her tennis ball :eek: the rottie was superb as was the owner (several sizes larger than me), both just stood and looked at her hanging off his ear. Owner remarked that his dog shouldn't have stolen her ball.

She's been really docile with dogs, particularly females, for ages now. And really sweet with puppies, wants to play with them although 'play' consists of her walloping the puppy and then jumping backwards :D
 
I had a staff that was great in the house and great with kids but outside she was a fucking nightmare, would snap and growl at everything. Used to take her to these fields at 6.30 in the morning hoping there weren't many dog walkers out so I could throw her a ball or a frisbee which she loved and every now and again someone would be out with a poodle or something bouncing around being all hello birds hello trees wanting to join in and I'd be like 'please keep away, please'
I read that first bit as you having staff. Which felt a bit fancy pants...
 
The39thStep Larry likes to say hello to all the dogs he meets, I do notice some owners putting their dogs on leads when Larry approaches though.

It looks like that when I see any dog though, she goes on the lead until I see her reaction. Tail wags backwards and forwards and she can come off the lead, tail wags circular in a helicopter style I keep a close eye on her.
 
It looks like that when I see any dog though, she goes on the lead until I see her reaction. Tail wags backwards and forwards and she can come off the lead, tail wags circular in a helicopter style I keep a close eye on her.
Is that a thing for all dogs or just your type?
 
I've been doing ok, mostly - but it's surviving rather than thriving.

Since mid-March last year, I've only had 3 brief real life meetings with family and friends - 2 in August and 1 in November. So I've been incredibly cut off from human contact. Whilst it doesn't seem to have impacted me too badly, I'm suspect there are effects just below the surface,

My sense of time is completely blown...The pandemic seems to have been going on forever, and time seems to have stopped completely, and life before that seems quite remote.
 
I read that first bit as you having staff. Which felt a bit fancy pants...
When my wife was alive she once insisted we got a cleaner. Merry Maids was the firm's name. That lasted about two months as we did more tidying up for the cleaner's arrival than we did without her, there was also a tendency to inspect the cleaners work which was a bit odd.
 
I've been OK throughout - I'm not very sociable anyway, so staying in all the time is pretty normal for me. Only people I've spoken to are people in shops, delivery people and the odd medical bod on phone appointments.
I am similar, except that my work from home involves calling people. I can speak to lots of people for work in a day which takes the edge off of being alone.
 
I am similar, except that my work from home involves calling people. I can speak to lots of people for work in a day which takes the edge off of being alone.
I spend a lot of each workday in meetings so same here. I have found I can perform perfectly well on a 10am call despite rolling out of bed at half nine with a hangover - learning new skills. :cool:

I'm very fortunate as clearly a lot of people who live alone are struggling, and hope those who are are as OK as can be.
 
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