This gets me:
" i had a long, freindly and open argument with J shortly after her speech to the conference. When I found out she was telling people, without having spoken to me about it, that I was mentally ill and that was why I left, i challenged her about it. She told me that this was what CC members and old friends of mine (one the then CC member chris bambery and one just about to be promoted to the CC i gather) were saying. She was clearly worried that she had done something wrong and told me about about asking MS how guilty he was (a sign that she had a weakness in understanding the issues of sexual harassment and rape) and said she had told her it was a one. She also said she had been thinking of the situation in Scotland and the way people would use any problems to split the party. She wanted to know what I knew and at the time I refused to tell her any details--mostly because I felt she had just taken part in a cover up at the conference and whispering about it to individuals could not make up for that damage, the young woman had at that time left the party and i did not feel her story was mine to tell (rape, which i always thought was what had happened is about loss of self determination and control and as such is for the women involved to disclose or not). the first people to leave were not in Jan 2011 but in 2010. I was one and left the day after MS bullied and i felt threatened me while announcing he was to stay on the CC. I was shocked beyond measure as I had understood he was off the CC even though the young woman had not made an official complaint. When i contacted CK asking if this was really true, he didnt answer the phone so i decided that i had to resign. CK replied after a CC meeting, by email, saying that the CC had discussed me leaving and that i could if i wanted discuss the situation with MS! I obviously refused. I did not say anything about this publically until after the young woman rejoined and complained officially and the rest of this sorry saga began. I deeply regret leaving in 2010 and not fighting for my party. I don't personally think that this sorry and disgusting saga is all down to the closure of women's voice or because the party had a women's liberationist critique of feminism as many of us who shared that history and that critique were perfectly able, at personal cost, to see what was wrong. The issue is that these people had firstly crushed over some years the tradition of open argument and honest debate, plus dont understand and cant be bothered to learn about sexual harassment and rape and have reduced our politics to those of after the revolution that we used to criticise in the Militant Tendency in the 1980s. Added to that mix they also decided that no matter how bad the behaviour of a CC member, no more could be lost in the midst of splits and chaos. So they have hidden behind things like no formal complaint was made (as if that should be needed when such behaviour is described) and have lied and manipulated and smeared. They have relied on the fact that the majority of party members really really want a revolutionary party, now more than ever and would swallow the idea that the survival of the party is more important than anything else or simply refuse to consider seriously the possibility that something so alien to our politics could occur. The survival of a revolutionary party build on the traditions of the SWP and IST is more important than any of us. That is why they should have forced Martin Smith out and fought hard for a genuinely revolutionary, women's liberationist understanding of our politics, which includes criticism of that wing of feminism that seeks equality within capitalism and therefore compromises and sells out and cant deliver. that they forced hundreds of young people, disgusted by the obvious betrayal of women's basic rights let alone liberation, to look elsewhere for politics that promise equality is a disgrace. i own my part in the errors made--i should have fought openly in 2011.
there is always disagreement about what happened in any rape case. Of course you cant know what is true and what not for sure and neither can I. But there are basic things to consider in regard to our politics--what does it mean when the leading man is assumed to be telling the truth by CC members even tho he initially lied about having any kind of sexual "relationship"? It means that the several young women complaining are assumed to have lied or worse, that the young woman who complained of rape is assumed not to be able to judge for herself if she consented. i have had comrades earnestly explain to me that she didn't really want to have sex but for whatever reason agreed and that she only later made it in her head to be rape (showing that they feel able to judge without ever even having met her). there are so many basic rape myths being peddled here. the worst of all is the blatent and open dismissal of the second young woman as being factionally motivated--and the failure to believe a word she says because she has political differences.... it is just time for people to own up that the party fucked this up, sort out our position on rape and stop trying to perpetrate the cover up because it corrupts our politics
it was a vicious lie. But it is enough to make anyone lose it and i certainly have found it disorientating--not least becuase i am swp old skool all the way and i agree with quite a lot of what Alex and Charlie have to say in the article. what i find disgusting is the attempt to link together the pack of smoke and mirrors on the sexual harassment and rape issue with general politics in a way that is meant to smear anyone arguing that a revolutionary party cannot let this stuff re sexual harassment stand with the brush of political revisionism. I do think that people are layering politcal confusion and disagreement on the issue but it is disgusting that the CC and their supporters use this to obscure and avoid dealing with their own failures. if i had the choice between the most bourgeois of bourgeois feminists and a rapist... well i'd lean my rifle on the shoulders of the bouregois feminist.... innit? the CC are to blame for the confusion and disorientation. i am no great revolutionary and i dont pretend to have any answers. i want the swp to survive, i want to be able to rejoin it. i want to be able to work alongside the people that i respected for so many years. But the sad truth is that the CC would rather have a rapist than the likes of me and rather have a shell of a party under their control than a much bigger organisation in which they have to win, by the example of principled and uncompromising anti-sexism and by clear high level political argument, the argument for our politics against reformist ideas like privilledge theory. That is a tragedy. we need a revolutionary organisation. i personally think we all played our part in f'ing it up in various ways--but the big crimes are those of the people who knew that abuse was going on and thought it best, for often the best of intentions, to cover it up. it is time the CC stopped, decided if they really want to build a revolutionary party or if the whole point has got a bit lost along away and its all about personal lifestyle etc. If the CC do want to build, then when in a hole stop digging ffs!
I dont know how it can be rescued now. But each day I miss a bit more being in the SWP I once knew-- I cant work out how to negotiate the world all by myself and not compromise or drift off into all sorts of errors. I cant be an intervention in the world alone--cant print or blog ideas that hold and educate people. I miss too the friendships I have lost. I have not changed my politics and I dont have anyother politial home. But if we are serious revolutionaries then we all need to find a way to get over it. I always hate the sneering at Alex and Charlie, mad though I am at them. I dont feel comfortable with it--yes they are fucking up. But i still think it is from a place of fear of the party falling apart (ironic given they have pulled it apart) and being ignorant on sexual harassment and rape. But i am clear that the only way to get over it, is to admit that something was wrong, seriously look at what abuse is like and its effects on people and then reopen honestly the party to those driven out who want to be members. those who dont need to be in whatever organisation suits their beliefs and then we all need to get on working to change the world, combining when we can, working together when we can and being honest, and open but not so bloody sectarian and personal, in our criticisms of eachother."
That's my kind of comrade. Except it will never happen.
" i had a long, freindly and open argument with J shortly after her speech to the conference. When I found out she was telling people, without having spoken to me about it, that I was mentally ill and that was why I left, i challenged her about it. She told me that this was what CC members and old friends of mine (one the then CC member chris bambery and one just about to be promoted to the CC i gather) were saying. She was clearly worried that she had done something wrong and told me about about asking MS how guilty he was (a sign that she had a weakness in understanding the issues of sexual harassment and rape) and said she had told her it was a one. She also said she had been thinking of the situation in Scotland and the way people would use any problems to split the party. She wanted to know what I knew and at the time I refused to tell her any details--mostly because I felt she had just taken part in a cover up at the conference and whispering about it to individuals could not make up for that damage, the young woman had at that time left the party and i did not feel her story was mine to tell (rape, which i always thought was what had happened is about loss of self determination and control and as such is for the women involved to disclose or not). the first people to leave were not in Jan 2011 but in 2010. I was one and left the day after MS bullied and i felt threatened me while announcing he was to stay on the CC. I was shocked beyond measure as I had understood he was off the CC even though the young woman had not made an official complaint. When i contacted CK asking if this was really true, he didnt answer the phone so i decided that i had to resign. CK replied after a CC meeting, by email, saying that the CC had discussed me leaving and that i could if i wanted discuss the situation with MS! I obviously refused. I did not say anything about this publically until after the young woman rejoined and complained officially and the rest of this sorry saga began. I deeply regret leaving in 2010 and not fighting for my party. I don't personally think that this sorry and disgusting saga is all down to the closure of women's voice or because the party had a women's liberationist critique of feminism as many of us who shared that history and that critique were perfectly able, at personal cost, to see what was wrong. The issue is that these people had firstly crushed over some years the tradition of open argument and honest debate, plus dont understand and cant be bothered to learn about sexual harassment and rape and have reduced our politics to those of after the revolution that we used to criticise in the Militant Tendency in the 1980s. Added to that mix they also decided that no matter how bad the behaviour of a CC member, no more could be lost in the midst of splits and chaos. So they have hidden behind things like no formal complaint was made (as if that should be needed when such behaviour is described) and have lied and manipulated and smeared. They have relied on the fact that the majority of party members really really want a revolutionary party, now more than ever and would swallow the idea that the survival of the party is more important than anything else or simply refuse to consider seriously the possibility that something so alien to our politics could occur. The survival of a revolutionary party build on the traditions of the SWP and IST is more important than any of us. That is why they should have forced Martin Smith out and fought hard for a genuinely revolutionary, women's liberationist understanding of our politics, which includes criticism of that wing of feminism that seeks equality within capitalism and therefore compromises and sells out and cant deliver. that they forced hundreds of young people, disgusted by the obvious betrayal of women's basic rights let alone liberation, to look elsewhere for politics that promise equality is a disgrace. i own my part in the errors made--i should have fought openly in 2011.
there is always disagreement about what happened in any rape case. Of course you cant know what is true and what not for sure and neither can I. But there are basic things to consider in regard to our politics--what does it mean when the leading man is assumed to be telling the truth by CC members even tho he initially lied about having any kind of sexual "relationship"? It means that the several young women complaining are assumed to have lied or worse, that the young woman who complained of rape is assumed not to be able to judge for herself if she consented. i have had comrades earnestly explain to me that she didn't really want to have sex but for whatever reason agreed and that she only later made it in her head to be rape (showing that they feel able to judge without ever even having met her). there are so many basic rape myths being peddled here. the worst of all is the blatent and open dismissal of the second young woman as being factionally motivated--and the failure to believe a word she says because she has political differences.... it is just time for people to own up that the party fucked this up, sort out our position on rape and stop trying to perpetrate the cover up because it corrupts our politics
it was a vicious lie. But it is enough to make anyone lose it and i certainly have found it disorientating--not least becuase i am swp old skool all the way and i agree with quite a lot of what Alex and Charlie have to say in the article. what i find disgusting is the attempt to link together the pack of smoke and mirrors on the sexual harassment and rape issue with general politics in a way that is meant to smear anyone arguing that a revolutionary party cannot let this stuff re sexual harassment stand with the brush of political revisionism. I do think that people are layering politcal confusion and disagreement on the issue but it is disgusting that the CC and their supporters use this to obscure and avoid dealing with their own failures. if i had the choice between the most bourgeois of bourgeois feminists and a rapist... well i'd lean my rifle on the shoulders of the bouregois feminist.... innit? the CC are to blame for the confusion and disorientation. i am no great revolutionary and i dont pretend to have any answers. i want the swp to survive, i want to be able to rejoin it. i want to be able to work alongside the people that i respected for so many years. But the sad truth is that the CC would rather have a rapist than the likes of me and rather have a shell of a party under their control than a much bigger organisation in which they have to win, by the example of principled and uncompromising anti-sexism and by clear high level political argument, the argument for our politics against reformist ideas like privilledge theory. That is a tragedy. we need a revolutionary organisation. i personally think we all played our part in f'ing it up in various ways--but the big crimes are those of the people who knew that abuse was going on and thought it best, for often the best of intentions, to cover it up. it is time the CC stopped, decided if they really want to build a revolutionary party or if the whole point has got a bit lost along away and its all about personal lifestyle etc. If the CC do want to build, then when in a hole stop digging ffs!
I dont know how it can be rescued now. But each day I miss a bit more being in the SWP I once knew-- I cant work out how to negotiate the world all by myself and not compromise or drift off into all sorts of errors. I cant be an intervention in the world alone--cant print or blog ideas that hold and educate people. I miss too the friendships I have lost. I have not changed my politics and I dont have anyother politial home. But if we are serious revolutionaries then we all need to find a way to get over it. I always hate the sneering at Alex and Charlie, mad though I am at them. I dont feel comfortable with it--yes they are fucking up. But i still think it is from a place of fear of the party falling apart (ironic given they have pulled it apart) and being ignorant on sexual harassment and rape. But i am clear that the only way to get over it, is to admit that something was wrong, seriously look at what abuse is like and its effects on people and then reopen honestly the party to those driven out who want to be members. those who dont need to be in whatever organisation suits their beliefs and then we all need to get on working to change the world, combining when we can, working together when we can and being honest, and open but not so bloody sectarian and personal, in our criticisms of eachother."
That's my kind of comrade. Except it will never happen.