Margaret Aspinall - Why We Fight On After 22 Years
MY son, James, was 18-years-old when he died at Hillsborough. The day after the disaster I went to Sheffield to bring his body home and being a mum I took his coat with me because he didn’t like the cold.
I remember saying to someone “put his coat on, I want to take him home,” and I was told he did not belong to me, he belongs to the coroner. In all my screams I said to them “He still belongs to me because no-one’s cut the unbilical cord. He’s mine and he always will be.” That’s why I carry on. As a mother what else could I do?
I brought five children into the world. James was my first born. People say to me I have another four children to carry on for but I did not give birth to four, I gave birth to five. I carry on for the love, for the compassion and for the hurt I still feel for James and I’ve got to do everything in my power to fight for him. I didn’t only lose a son that day. My children also lost a brother.
He did nothing wrong that day. He did everything right but like all other Liverpool supporters he got accused of being drunk and so much else. We’ve got to clear their names. As a mum with so much love for a child I can no longer see, he is still in my heart and always will be.
For 22 years the fans, the survivors and the 96, have been called for everything. The families have gone through hell. We are not fighting for revenge. All we have ever wanted is the truth and accountability.
As a group of bereaved people, the hardcore of the families have been together since day one. Joan Traynor was our treasurer for 20 years before she became ill. She lost two sons. I spoke to Joan on the phone two days before she died and her last words to be were “I hope God spares me just long enough to see the truth for my boys. That’s all I want.” Unfortunately, God didn’t spare her. That is another reason why we must carry on. We also lost Eddie Spearitt recently while Phil Hammond has had his health concerns. The fight is now not just about the 96. It is also about the people we have lost along the way.
We are all old now. We started off having raffles to keep the group going and to keep the momentum going. It worked and it’s tremendous that we’ve all stuck together for this long. We all have different opinions and rightly so but we have stayed united. If it wasn’t for everyone else we would not have got this far. The support we’ve had, not just from Liverpool, has given us the strength to carry on when we have been at our lowest ebb. Even this week an online petition has been signed by more than 50,000 people.
We all want to know why our loved ones died at a football match. James came home five days later in a coffin. I need to know the truth. At the time I probably would’ve hung, drawn and quartered those responsible but that was just anger. I’ve gone beyond that now. I just want the truth. I’ve got to have some peace in my heart and for the rest of my family.
I want someone to show that what The Sun did a couple of days later was a disgrace. I want somebody to print, not for people just in this country to see but for people all around the world, that they did nothing wrong that day and I want the apologies that we’ve never received. They said they had The Truth but they never, they just had lies. That’s why we must have the real truth.