emanymton - you didn't, don't worry
i asked mrs m to ban me for a week, cos by my reaction to a totally innocent comment, i could tell i was already going a bit headwrong
(i think i've mentioned that it's not always been a good idea for me to post on this thread
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i was scared that i was going to go absolutely fucking nuclear about all the shit taht'd gone on in my life over the previous month, and wasn't at the point where i felt ok about talking about it (and was being told 'not to talk outside the group' about stuff. i'd gone off on one about the 'milder' stuff the week before on here/fb, and it didn't go well).
so yeah. that night, i decided to go and have a sleep in the snow. then got bored and decided i needed sectioning so that i couldn't hurt myself or tell people what had gone on. admittedly, i'd expressed how blindingly furious i was with everyone involved, and that if they came near me i'd (er) hurt them.
and then had a horrendous text conversation with rapey ex, which ended up in him telling the crisis team i was about to stab his other partner up (she was 200 miles away), sending the paramedics, me walking out of the assessment in hospital being fucking traumatised and mildly hypothermic, and then getting arrested under the mental health act (unlawfully) and dragged out me house in handcuffs.
i did gob in a coppers face and call him a rape apologist cunt without any charges being pressed though
/that is what happened the day i banned myself. interesting times