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Trapped in a Street
Many are being hunted down for political reasons, but even more are hiding to avoid conscription. Houssam is one of the latter, not wanting to fight for the regime against which he has spent 16 years protesting. By law, he should have joined the military four years ago. Ever since Oct. 18, 2015, when soldiers in civilian clothes combed through the streets and rounded up thousands of young men, he hasn't left his small street.
Houssam used to be a lawyer. When the protests began in 2011, he woke up from a political lethargy into which he had plunged as a result of his last stint in prison. He took to the streets and joined the demonstrations -- a painful choice, because during his imprisonment, his knees and ankles had been beaten to a pulp with plastic pipes.
Then the war began. He was arrested once again, tortured and released. Houssam does not receive visitors at his home, it is too risky, but he does accept telephone calls and we spoke with him every day for a week.
On this Sunday, he says, he is sitting like he does every day in the small apartment where he lives together with his wife and daughter. He lives off of money that he gets from his parents and, sometimes, from his friends. "Winter is coming," he says. "How am I supposed to get money for heating oil?" It is a question he asks himself almost every day: He doesn't have enough money for food, rent or oil. But his primary concern is survival.
"Either you are with the regime or you are an enemy. You are either part of a militia, or you are a man filled with fear," he says. The regime, he continues, monitors its territory ruthlessly. "If it's not the secret services keeping tabs on what you do, then it's the society, the neighbors." There is a saying in Damascus, he says: We gather to drink, and we drink out of fear of the others.
He says he never wanted to leave his country. "I thought we had a duty to fill the streets until the regime disappeared. But I can't do it anymore." Of the 50 people with whom he used to regularly meet in living rooms to talk politics at the beginning of the uprising, maybe 10 are still in Damascus, he says. "The others were sent to the front to get rid of them."
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