How could you have been a huge admirer of Martin Smith bolshie?
I've never understood people's admiration for Smith. When he was industrial organiser, as an RMT tube worker I had a lot of dealings with him. He was a bully. He really tried to find people's weaknesses and really pick on them. He seemed to delight in undermining women (I said this long before the rape allegations, so it's not a hindsight realisation) - he stood up at a packed Marxism meeting in 2003/4 and really started belittling this older woman who was being cautious about things in the RMT. She was clearly in real distress at the way he was talking about her (and pointing at her, to make sure everyone could see her), but he didn't stop, and then kept saying "I'm only joking, only joking, you know I love you, I'm only joking". Robust debate is fine, but you don't have to humiliate people to make your point.
He did the same thing to someone who was against the Respect split, really picking on her at an aggregate meeting in 2008, coming close to her while he responded to her and jabbing his finger right up against her. Sure, he picked on blokes too, but he did seem to enjoy bullying women more.
Politically, his actions contradicted the "rank and file" stuff the party had us doing. His discussions were always full of "I'm meeting crow next week" and meeting exec committees; he really pushed for us to take full-time union positions in the RMT. Dave Renton has written about this change, so it's not just something I noticed.
He did seem to have some strengths; he had an ability to summarise people's feelings, and that was useful to a new guy like me. But I guess all you need to know is that he was one of the biggest liars throughout the whole Respect split. He was the one who said "the party will go nuclear" (I was there), he was the one who spread the worst of the smears about people. He was the one who organised the expulsions, "lost" emails, lied about sending letters etc. to make sure people couldn't raise complaints at the conference. He was the one who suspended a woman but wouldn't allow it to be reported at the 2008 conference.
None of this has anything to do with his guilt or innocence of later accusations. But the guy is a thug and a bully; I can imagine he has a certain amount of charm, and I can also imagine that he can make younger women feel intimidated.
(edit - typos)