(another one for Malatesta if he wants to include it....)
My background was primarily from the Anarchist-punk scene. I’d moved over to Nottingham, from a small town near Leicester, when I was seventeen. We’d go to gigs, hang out around a couple of local pubs and frequent the Rock City night-club almost every Friday and Saturday. Even though, looking back, I wasn’t terribly clued-up politically I became aware that organised Fascist groups (along with a certain amount of passive supporters and friends) were established around Nottinghamshire and the Derbyshire border area.
The main pubs we drank in were The Salutation, and another one called The Dragon (just off the Market Square). Sometimes groups of Blood and Honour skinheads would drink in the same places, and I knew that Donaldson and his mates had been regular visitors to The Dragon some weekends before making their way up to Rock City. As young kids, we always thought it best to stay well away from them, but it wasn’t always possible and I remember two incidents in particular.
The first instance was when a punk gig in the town was attacked. Two boneheads had come up to the rear of the venue and CS gassed the people on the door. Then the second was when myself and two younger lads had gone into Rock City, and one of my mates was wearing an "End Racism" t-shirt with a picture of Martin Luther King on the back. They’d wandered off while I’d chatted to some other people, and came back later looking a bit shaken. They’d both explained that a big skinhead had approached them and said to the one with the t-shirt "how come you’re flashing your politics, eh? I don’t show mine!" (regardless of the fact he himself was wearing a No Remorse t-shirt, and an assortment of B+H badges). Before my mate could say anything, the skinhead pulled his jacket aside showing a huge carving knife stitched onto the inside. He went on; "we’ll go outside if you like? I’ve been to prison and I’m not afraid of going back." With that he turned and wandered off. It seemed pointless telling the doorstaff, as everyone knew the security were friendly with the skinheads anyway. Later I kept wondering who these fuckers thought they were just wandering around bullying a couple of young lads out for a drink.
Another strange thing was the way that the social circles sometimes overlapped. I knew that quite a few of the heavy-metal guys we hung around with had also been seen chatting in a friendly manner to some of the skinheads. One of these interestingly was Rob Sherlock, who later became a close associate of Ian Stuart Donaldson and was actually driving the car the night the Skrewdriver singer was killed. As kids he always came across as a nice guy, but slightly insecure. So it probably shouldn’t have been a big surprise when the Fascists started taking him under their wing. Apparently he’d been regaling people with stories of how Donaldson was a great bloke, and how he’d even sorted him and another mates’ bus fare out when they went to see his band play. Rob had also started taking Skrewdriver records along to the local pub and insisting on the DJ playing them while he sat in a corner headbanging and Sieg-Heiling. The whole thing was a bit sad and finally many of us just told him to fuck off, people even began ignoring him in the street.
It was just after this that I became more conscious of the fact that it was one thing to hold an opinion, but the importance was to act upon it. Most of my mates considered themselves "politically minded" but had no real inclination to become politically active. I honestly reckon they were much more satisfied with listening to Crass records and drinking cider. The encroachment of Fascism and Fascist ideas within some areas of Nottinghamshire really needed to be addressed. So one day when passing the local radical bookshop I took a glance at their noticeboard and saw an advert for a meeting of the "East Midlands Anarchists". A few days later I was off over to Derby to attend it. I’d no clue what was going to happen and half-expected (or hoped) for at least a few fiery speeches calling for the violent dismantling of the system.
Not anything of the sort. Instead I was faced with a room of around half a dozen people drinking herbal tea, talking about one of them (who looked like a candidate for a Mental Health Unit) publishing his own poetry. I was fucking despondent. But just before I was about to leave, a crowd of other people turned up. This was a much more rough and ready bunch. As the speaker mentioned attending an upcoming CND march in London, one of the new comers dressed in a flight jacket with a shaved head covered in a jigsaw puzzle of scars, said ironically "aye, fuck, I bet it’ll kick off". To which the rest of them laughed. Discussion was then re-directed for the afternoon with talk of "kicking fuck out of the fash" and how "two BNP brothers who looked like the Proclaimers, and a rat-faced bastard called Graham Tasker" had been done for attacking an SWP paper sale. Seemingly the general consensus amongst the new comrades was that the judges hammer was probably best replaced with the sort you could buy from a Wilkos hardware store. As we left the meeting I sensed that my idea of revolutionary action was more in line with these guys, as opposed to the crowd in the open-toed sandals. I agreed to meet up with them in Nottingham over the following days, and that’s pretty much how I came to be involved in Anti-Fascist Action for the next several years.