After I left the party I remember discussing many of these points with an old friend who had left before me but was still ostensibly loyal to the party. Why wouldn't he fully make the break? To do so he explained would mean that all he had struggled for, had sacrificed for ( and though he had a phd. He and his family lived in the most precarious fashion, scratching an existence working less than 5 hours a week- hough later he got a job on the underground) would have been for nothing.
In the red party we had a discussion about the conservative nature of the revolutionary bureaucracy. Even though there is an enormous differential materially between the potential earnings of the brightest kids from clever schools who become the leaders of such groups. In particular we discussed the position of Sean matgamma, a full time revolutionary for over 40 years.
the tiny group of the awl, whilst generally despised by other trots, presents a fairly open face to the wider movement, and by all accounts is a fairly open internal structure, and yet SM has remained at the summit of that group without challenge since the 1970s. The awl doesn't have the financial resources of the SWP, and SM apparently lives a frugal existence, and yet his life is greatly different and privileged compared with the mass of awl members, let alone working class people. He is free to write and speak about what impassions him, to travel and mix with others who share his views and treat him with a certain deference. Inside his small world he can live a life free from alienation. Even a minor questioning of this situation, which depends upon the voluntary contributions, both financial and physical, of the party rank & file, has the potential to threaten the whole edifice.