I was feeling a bit listless and concerned what life will be like once my youngest moves out (since it hit me so hard with the eldest going to uni) so I've been really putting effort in to embrace joyful activities since then. Learning something new has sparked something most pleasant. It's helped me feel alive again.
But on the other hand I dunno if it's covid related or this sense that lifes gone utterly bonkers and tits up... or peri menopause (probably) But I've been feeling quite apathetic and removed from people and also feeling really frumpy, not at all sexy and also not feeling like making the effort with my appearance. Lost all interest in buying nice clothes too..just feeling like what's the point..personally or in the grand scheme of things. Feel like I've been dressing like a farm hand lately
Like I've given up in some way mentally and physically.
So I've lost some part of myself but gained another.