I am wavering a bit as the vote approaches. I guess that's the way it goes with such a big decision.
Even if "Leave" wins, especially if it is by a small margin, there is no guarantee that we will actually Leave, as the referendum is advisory rather than legally binding. Ultimately, the decision lies with the government. I can see them arguing that a small Leave win is not mandate enough to leave (not that a narrow remain win would be interpreted in such a way).
I was disgusted by UKIP recycling Nazi propaganda last week, on the same day Jo Cox was murdered; though trying not to let symptoms of right wing fuckwittery overwrite the many decent non right-wing reasons for a leave vote.
The trouble is, no outcome really is very palatable. If Remain wins we are shackled to a neoliberal happy-clappers outfit who in an ideal world would impose TTIP and all kinds of other free-market crap, whilst at the same time sitting and shuffling awkwardly as Hungary and Bulgaria put up razor wire fences and beat up /arrest defenceless and desperate people; as Austria, Croatia and France flirt with electing fascists and neo-Nazis. And, some of our taxpayers cash goes to a rising despot in Turkey who feels so emboldened by our unelected leaders' moral squeamishness that he shoots unarmed migrants on his border and is engaged in an all out war against Kurds in Syria.
If Leave wins, Putin is happy, Farage will be filmed laughing half cut in the pub with Gove and Johnson, and who knows what kind of libertarian fantasists playground the UK will come in a very short space of time. This for me is the trouble with the Lexit platform. There is simply no thinking whatsoever on how to resist the plans of the Farages and Goves of this world, and by what means many of the neoliberal gains of the last thirty years could be reversed in a non-EU Britain. Indeed, it seems likely that those two have a plan to turn the UK into some kind of Singapore off the coast of Europe.
Moreover, the capacity for pro-working class forces to resist such a drive post Brexit is virtually nil. The unions are branded social clubs in the main these days and the few capable thinkers are so politically isolated and without influence that they are effectively howling at the moon. Meanwhile celebrity leftists like Mason and Varoufakis seem more intent on growing their own personal brands and making nonsense calls for pan-European social movements than in contributing anything worthwhile.
It's all very well making calls to "destablise the emergent neo-liberal global order" via a no vote, but it's being written about as an isolated event rather than as a process. Unfortunately it seems about as valuable as a Trot motion of solidarity with Palestine passed by four people in the back room of a pub.
I hope I'm wrong. But it's not pleasant at all being asked to choose which bowl of reeking right-wing shite to eat from this Thursday. Not pleasant at all. Not that not eating is an option either.
I still lean towards leave as at least there is a glimmer from a marginally open door, maybe. But people who vote for the safety of the familiar and what they know can't be despised either. My feeling is, particularly in the wake of last Thursday's sickening murder by a fascist terrorist, that Remain will win quite comfortably in the end.
That being the case, what will "business as usual" look like for political and business elites? I would expect at least a fortnight's worth of oleaginous plaudits for choosing the "European course" and the UK to have quite a bit of slack for a while with Brussels. And for us to continue to try and let the Chinese build a nuclear plant in Essex and pay the French ludicrously over the odds to try and do the same. Followed by another decade of economic austerity and "it's just not realistic to expect us to pay for this anymore".
Depressing.