What do you actually want? What would it take?
i haven't been ignoring you, i just hadn't quite got as far as saying anything...
highest priority is job security - i'm already at a point where some employers / colleagues will see me as too old and i don't want to be job hunting / job hunting again in a few years, but i'm 12 / 13 years off retirement age. assuming the bastards don't up the age again.
as far as some employers are concerned, i have 'had too many jobs' - 2019 job was a mistake but escape plans were buggered up by covid. 2021 job was an even bigger mistake, and i can't afford many more mistakes.
current job is ok as far as it goes, it's just a bit far away on the (relatively few) days i have to be there, and i can't see it lasting me out - while it's not formally linked to money that the tories were throwing around on the basis that the next government would have to sort it all out, there is an element of that to it. and in all honesty, it's probably paid a grade or so higher than the work i actually do, and sooner or later someone else is going to notice that.
i'm a bit specialised in what i do - there aren't many people who do what i do, but there aren't that many jobs going either. going in to any other line of work i'm only really experienced enough to do basic admin work, and if employers are looking for someone to do basic admin, i've got the wrong sort of experience and would be seen as overqualified. i'm not up to doing anything physically demanding, and i'm not the slightest bit creative, so can't think of anything self employed i could do.
i don't really do 'ambition' - the idea of being a manager and having to check time sheets and give people bollockings for being ill and all that sort of shit doesn't appeal to me. but having said that, i don't want to be in the sort of job where i'm only there for the graduates to look down on and be 'fast tracked' past.
geographically, i've got to think about ability to get to mum-tat's in an emergency, so even being this far from SE London isn't ideal. but moving to london is potentially going to mean taking out a modest bit of finance so the job security bit is important for that.