What you been doing for the last two hours? (pt4)

[RaverDrew]

Been coming down from a long 2ce trip...think i'm finally ready to sleep but we'll see!

yowzers !!!

waaatchas tehwords allllldancceinto eac hother

 

[TrippyLondoner]

yowzers !!!

waaatchas tehwords allllldancceinto eac hother

lol, it was hard at first as i havent done a drug like this for a year or so, managed to get to grips with it! I'm just wondering when to bother trying to sleep, can't seem to move much though,ha. Just drifting along...

 

[Shippou-Sensei]

sounds nice

tis my second weekend* with nothing more than caffine and booze and it's already feeling a bit empty



* i get long weekends ok

 

[RaverDrew]

lol, it was hard at first as i havent done a drug like this for a year or so, managed to get to grips with it! I'm just wondering when to bother trying to sleep, can't seem to move much though,ha. Just drifting along...

I always find relaxing music helps. Something that's an old favourite that you haven't listened to in a while. Kick back, close your eyes and and take in all the little nuances you've never noticed in it before.

Music with many layers and gentle build ups like a bit of moby or leftfield does it for me.

 

[sojourner]

Visiting my parents, playing with my new harmonica, and finding out that my cats REALLY don't like harmonicas in the key of E

They fucking ambushed me, repeatedly butting my harp into my face, and yowling like bastards - a tad offputting when you're trying to write a fucking song

They don't mind C or D, or even A

 

[cesare]

Sharpening knives

 

[sojourner]

Sharpening knives

For 2 hours?! How many fucking knives dya have?

 

[100% masahiko]

What a stressful 30mins.
My old and good friend has just told me how her bf has beaten her black and blue - after she discovered he was shagging someone. what a shit.

 

[100% masahiko]

Strange days.

So my mate who was beaten up, is now justifying her violent partner's actions.

I don't understand some women...

Can't be fucked dealing with this crap.

 

[sojourner]

^ fairly common behaviour in someone in those circumstances. when your identity and self-esteem get so far pounded down, that's what you do. done it myself enough times to know.

s'up to you if you want to give up, but she still needs you, and will need you again if she ever faces up to the truth of what she's putting up with

 

[gentlegreen]

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[100% masahiko]

^ fairly common behaviour in someone in those circumstances. when your identity and self-esteem get so far pounded down, that's what you do. done it myself enough times to know.

s'up to you if you want to give up, but she still needs you, and will need you again if she ever faces up to the truth of what she's putting up with

It's real difficult.
He's gets all possessive and upset if he knew her and I were talking (he's very anti-male. It'd be worse if he knew that we dated once as in our late teens!!!).

He'd do shit like smash up the house, destroys her belongings, upsets the kids etc (though she's justified that the last time, after he beat her - that perhaps she should be seeing events through his standards! How fucked up is that!).

I can't visit (same with all male friends).
Her parents and family disliked him loads.
She can't tell her family. Says she feels ashamed.
Man, I wish I could go over there and tell him where to stick it...

But yeah, I will stick by to see if she's okay.

TO ADD: this is how messed up he is. He won't let the father of the children visit either!

 

[sojourner]

Someone does have to stick by her I think

One day she might be able to face up to it. For me, after ages of covering it up, lying about the bruises etc, he attacked me in public for a change, and a very kind girl sent me home in a cab (gave me the money and everything) and told me to tell my parents. I finally did - and the shame of them knowing what I'd been covering up gave me the impetus to tell more people, which gave me more shame and ultimately helped me to stay away from him

It's really fucking difficult, I know, but I've seen both sides, and your support is invaluable to her. Her self-esteem gets less with each day - she WILL take his side purely due to that because she's losing her SELF.

Good luck, and wishing you strength to cope

 

[100% masahiko]

Someone does have to stick by her I think

One day she might be able to face up to it. For me, after ages of covering it up, lying about the bruises etc, he attacked me in public for a change, and a very kind girl sent me home in a cab (gave me the money and everything) and told me to tell my parents. I finally did - and the shame of them knowing what I'd been covering up gave me the impetus to tell more people, which gave me more shame and ultimately helped me to stay away from him

It's really fucking difficult, I know, but I've seen both sides, and your support is invaluable to her. Her self-esteem gets less with each day - she WILL take his side purely due to that because she's losing her SELF.

Good luck, and wishing you strength to cope

Thanks you for the wise words.
I think this a great mindset to have when approaching her next. It's just...well, I've known her since I was 16 - while growing up in a small town in Wales - it deeply saddens me to see her like this. It's very hard in holding back how I feel about him and I wish I could go over there and choke the bastard out. I hope she does get out and tell everyone who cares and love her...cos it's tough atm.

 

[sojourner]

I know how you must be feeling. I had to beg my dad and my brother, and my bloke mates, not to kick the living shit out of my ex. The very last thing I needed was yet more violence. When/if she makes that break, she needs peace, quiet, and no violence, in order to recover properly and rebuild her self.

A lot of people were hugely surprised when they found out about what had been going on with me, cos they'd always known me as a very strong take-no-shit person. That kind of destructive environment changes a person.

It might help a bit if she does know how you feel, but expressed gently, and whilst letting her know that although you feel that way, you are there for her.

Other people's disapproval is a very difficult thing to cope with, and it's a fine line - but my experience is that you do need to know that other people do not think it's acceptable, and do not approve of the situation.

 

[100% masahiko]

I sent her an email.
I said I was sorry for being so impatient and crass.
I told her it was because I cared and I had to see her hurt/upset.

Also, I said I'll be here whenever she needs me.

I hope it'll do.
Cos I need to remain calm.

Thanks again.

 

[sojourner]

sounds fine to me, although it might have been better said in person

no worries

 

[Voley]

I've spent the last two hours getting stoned, listening to Bob Dylan, enjoying C66 and dylans little spat and trying to convince my sister that her new hairdo doesn't make her look like Rod Stewart.

 

[manstein]

In the local boozer chatting with Latvians.

 

[METH LAB]

Wondering why i bother taking mephedrone, and blowin my brains out with my new headphones on full blast... got major f*ckin tinitus now i tells ya.

peace

 

[Cheesypoof]

drinking cocktails with my best mates.

i always go on and on about how fundamentally human beings are GOOD, this is what i drill into my friends whether drunk or sober, and i am thinking the same thing now, its always this thing that im thinking.

 

[METH LAB]

What are we gonna do for the next 2 hours? off topic i suppose.

Im set for some out of relaity perceptional malfunction etc.. cheeseypoof, am i likely to incounter any gurdian angels? or god? what do i look for?? Im doing this espeically coz you said on the other thread about gurdian angels

peace

 

[Cheesypoof]

What are we gonna do for the next 2 hours? off topic i suppose.

Im set for some out of relaity perceptional malfunction etc.. cheeseypoof, am i likely to incounter any gurdian angels? or god? what do i look for?? Im doing this espeically coz you said on the other thread about gurdian angels

peace

you are very likely to encounter guardian angels, ie your OWN angel who is sitting there behind you, (wings wrapped around very tight, and possibly solemn very serious protective face), and thats cool, but if you want communication with them you have to talk to them....all you have to do is ask

 

[METH LAB]

Ive asked b4 with no joy, at least no specific joy... why has all this gotta be so cryptic?? I bet you £20 i'll end up with all manner of transparent f*ckas about the place and not one of 'em will answer to 'are you my gurdian angel' or look anything like it.

errr, do they really watch you the entire time?? lol

maybe i'll say im freinds with you that might help communication? (sure as hell wont help spelling lol) yea i'll try that

 

[Numbers]

Been painting for the last 7 hours, never mind 2

Should have taken the next cpl of days off as I is on a roll. Being rather bold too, yellow hall, stairs and landing, blue banister, electrics cupboard and loft thingymagiggy, wholemeal bedroom with white skirting, silver radiator (via spray paint) in the bathroom and white rads elsewhere.

Missus is gonna love me when she comes in

 

[Cheesypoof]

Ive asked b4 with no joy, at least no specific joy... why has all this gotta be so cryptic?? I bet you £20 i'll end up with all manner of transparent f*ckas about the place and not one of 'em will answer to 'are you my gurdian angel' or look anything like it.

errr, do they really watch you the entire time?? lol

maybe i'll say im freinds with you that might help communication? (sure as hell wont help spelling lol) yea i'll try that

do that. I was gonna suggest the same thing

and YES, they watch over you constantly.

 

[100% masahiko]

Americans get on my fuckin' tits.

 

[live_jayeola]

Setting up virtual servers on machines at home from my gf's house. Listening to rap on spotify, arranging going to the South Bank Center and catching up on emails.

 

[100% masahiko]

Trying to figure out if I should buy a an iMac, iBook, PC, or build my own.

 

[madzone]

I went to bed, put the electric blanket on and watched the worlds worst Sci Fi/Disaster movie. It was fab

I can't rememer the last time I went to bed in the day