Okay, a second complaint about the guided meditations I've been doing recently. When dealing with thoughts that arise during meditation, the assumption is that the thought itself is not something you need indulge in - it is some anxiety or worry, or some useless feeling of shame or whatever. So you can just move away from the thought back to your focus and nothing will be lost, is the assumption. But the actual thoughts that tend to arise during my meditations are things that I have to make decisions about. I do, in fact, need to dedicate time to thinking about those things, in order to try to reach the best decision. So while I can steer away from the thought through focusing on the breath or whatever, they are thoughts that I will be required to come back to, I can't just put them aside. Or I can choose to just recognise that I'm thinking that during the meditation and let the thought go on, but it will take over the meditation because in any given decision there is a lot to think about. I don't really understand why all the guided meditations assume that whatever thoughts are arising, they are just superfluous burdens that can be shed. Don't we all have decisions that need to be made?
It's a difficult question to answer, or a complaint to rectify - but for me it hinges on what you want from meditation/mindfullness. There's a divorcing between "wanting to feel calmer" and "wanting to explore (very strange) Buddhist metaphysics." people normally sign up for the former, but are not interested (completly understable) in the later.
If it's the former - then just allow thoughts into awareness - don't try to fix them or change them or make them go away. You will eventually build up a sense that there's a watcher of thought, and the two are seperate (but they really are not) but this will allow you perspective, to have power where you once didn't, etc. The sense of an observer gets stronger and you ability to gain perspective on every-day problems will be become greater. You see through the word game of your own mind and your own subjectivity.
but this has little, in my view, to do with Buddhism! so if you're not interested in Buddhism, then I would perhaps just try and develop that.
To me Buddhist philosophical foundations actually have not much to do with meditation - although, the meditation can bring on experiential states that give a sense of embodying the methaphysical foundations of Buddhism. What is the watcher? Who is thinking? What is a thought? Where are thoughts come from - do we go to thought, or do they go to us? What is holding on, what is letting go, and is there a difference between the two? Is there a cause, is there an affect? Is this happening in time or outside of time? Is it happening by itself? What is the happening? Does my sense of self have to be tehre for it to happen? What is seeing/hearing, etc. Do you need a seer for seeing, a hearer for hearing? To me these questions of metaphysics are questions that lead to the divine ground, Being (with Heideggers capital B), the Buddhafield, Tathagata. All of course ununswarable but you can spend a fruitful life time expoloring, or perhaps getting somewhat closer to an answer, for all those questions and certainly getting rid of assumptionts that one had
already about them. The mind states that one can get into are certainly not pointless. The perspectives you can get just by seeing the questions are not a waste of time. But it's "questions along teh path" and the path, for me at least, has been ardeous, up and down, never ending. It's a tough road and I am not sure how anyone sets out on it, but many do. EVen worse, I am not even sure of the point of walking it, but I do.
i've meditated daily for years and probably just as neurotic (see my anger, gripes, moans, escapades across teh forum for instance) as i was way back then, but i do hold in my heart certain unanswerable questions that can empty my mind in an instant, or to whipe out fear with almost no effort. but the midn and the human and emotiosn always return and roll on, pushing me on - but pondering these things can restructure things a little. i think understanding that and understanding that that understanding won't end the suffering is key for me. we're stuck here
"A sudden crash of thunder, the mind doors open! And there sits the ordinary old man". This Zen phrase I think is one of the best because it ties up immanance and transcendance. I think the goal of my spiritual path is too see, as the saying implies, that the two are the same. That there is only one life, this one, and to live it and enjoy it and perhaps chill the fuck out now and then.
I enjoy this thread, you're the only folk i really talk to about this stuff