There's a meme or a twitter exchange I remember but can't find. It goes something like....These alleged benefits of getting up early are a total mystery to me, and have been throughout my life.
Larks are nice but I never want to be one!
No offence intended to anyone extolling the virtures of early day-starting
But it's just that with me not working from home, I have to get up barbarically-early on work days ...
So I daydream of retirement, and of going through the whole of winter without ever having to get up before it's light!
At least I have long weekends with no working Fridays (ETA : because I work part time, Monday to Thursday only) .... and very often I xan have non-working Mondays too
So the whole thing could easily be worse ...
But we think we heard him do it (a particularly big crash, I was washing the dishes and jumped, and Mr W came through from the living room and we both kind of went 'oof that was a big one' and then we didn't think much more about it, because he banged and crashed all the time and we had just kind of got used to him. And now we've been walking around merrily living our lives underneath him hanging there dead. I feel pretty awful to be honest.
It’s a horrible feeling and you are going to feel awful for a bit I expect but you absolutely couldn’t have prevented this. You were used to his chaotic behaviour, it wasn’t new for you. In another situation, banging and crashing would alert neighbours that something was wrong.
Not surprising you feel awful, but hopefully you won't feel guilty - you're really not to blame in any way.
Oh, weepiper, that's a tough situation to find yourself in. Be kind to yourself, and try to do what you can not to do the "if only..." thing.
I had an acute attack of that a few days after my jab when cycling alongside a canal with a lot of foliage about, but am indoors today and I’m not getting the usual itchiness, red eyes etc.
Ok thanks. A pretty heavy weekend. One of the neighbours googled him and found out that he had done a law degree and 8 months before he moved in here he got promoted to an elevated position in a high level recruitment consultancy. 'James has a strong record in recruiting CEOs in the finance industry'. He was already a chaotic alcoholic when he moved in and a year and a bit later he was a total shambling jakey who you only saw going to the shop for more booze at 10am in dirty stained clothes who hanged himself. It's a pretty stratospheric downward trajectory. He never spoke to any of us about himself so we had no idea.
I remember when I saw a guy killed by a national express coach, he'd smiled at me seconds before impact and I felt responsible for a while after. Maybe write him a letter? It's good to get things out in that way and helps you process all of the feelings. Big love X
Sugar Kane I know you said please don't quote me, but "muddle management" is absolutely brilliant and I hope you spelled it like that on purpose.
