the last 2 hours i have been crying alot and getting a much needed hug off my boss, and working. the 6 hours before that were spent crying and wishing my children would all fend for themselves which is a bit of a long shot as the range from 5years to 4 weeks , but would have been lovely. kids have now been dispatched to various friends for the weekend, and i'mm of th the docs tmw, and have a meeting with my boss and hr tmw to discuss coming back to work earlier than planned as full time motherhood is driving me up the wall! if i'm not working, i cant use the work childcare provisions which means i have all 5 kids pretty much all the time. the eldest 2 goes to a playgroup for a few hours each day , but they have been missing sessions as i havent got time to take them up there, and if the litte un is ill, he obviously takes priorety. the 2 hours i spent at work today were bliss, and i felt so guilty but so happy at the same time. ironically, i work with special needs kids and young adults with ebd, autism and epilepsy among other things