I can only echo that you need to take a step back from this pete, you will possibly be waiting some time before you are called for assesment, you need to make notes of things that occur to you but there is nothing you can do to help the process now. If you or I do end up with basic ESA meanstested, you will become eligble for means tested benefits, and will have to survive on the same as a lot off other people who for whatever reason don't have an occupational pension will. it is worrying but you won't be left without a home, its an odd little quirk o the system that a pension isn't counted as income, its the same quirk that used to allow police officers retire from the police, get jobs as planning enforement officers or similar and get salary plus pension.
Its possible that my unwillingness to face up to things has meant I am out of time for getting it reviewed/appealed, (I am finding out about that now), i know that I was medically retired because it wasn't anticipated I would be fit to work again.
Its been interesting that a close friend who I supported through appeal has looked at me very differently this week since it became apparent that I would receive more benefit than him. Strange the things you learn about friends.
I also think that the call I had (which I now know to have been from the decision maker) seemed quite decided before they spoke to me that I would get WRAG, and I think is calculated to reduce my benefit(and so the governments benefit bill), I had thought it was because of my existing MH problems and the backlash there had been with people like me killing themselves, but it has little or nothing to do with the likelhood of my being fit to return to work. I didn't pursue it at the time, I was so relieved to get ESA at all, at a difficult time in my life, my very dear friend lost her fight with breast cancer at the age of 49 around that time, I was just grateful to be alive, it may mean I have fucked my benefits, but I am still here, still breathing.