I've been intensely missing my Ruby all over again.
The place where I do pottery is closed for a fortnight and I'm all out of hearts to glue, which may be a contributing factor. I mean, I've been missing her every moment since the moment she died, but the intensity varies and the shape of it shifts around, sorta thing. Having the hearts project to work on gives me a feeling of still being connected to her, which is lacking right now.
Anyway, on a whim, I signed up to Borrow My Doggy yesterday as a "borrower".
That in itself was bittersweet because I used to be on there as an "owner", and other people borrowed Ruby, back in the day.
So, today I've had a really nice exchange of messages with someone who has a middle-aged male staffie, a rescue (I said I'd only be up for borrowing dogs who were rescued/adopted) called Marley who lives a 15 minute walk away from me. We plan to meet tomorrow morning (unless it's absolutely tipping it down).
Marley looks and sounds like a really fabulous dog and a great match for me, and his human sounds nice too.
Obviously he can't and won't be a replacement for Ruby who is utterly irreplaceable and beyond comparison. I do think, though, assuming all goes well and I do get to borrow him, it will be a positive step for me, and a partial comfort.
I like to talk to dogs, and will defo tell him all about Ruby. The only other times I've had a dog in my flat since she died, they were the dogs of friends of mine who knew Ruby, and I babbled at them about our missing friend a fair bit, but also really appreciated their presence for its own sake. It's just really nice to be around dogs, innit.
