Eivets Rednow
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I’ve had a bit of a dip in my combatting of hopelessness. I certainly don’t feel hopeless, but I have lost the exhilarating high that I had a couple of months ago. This is probably healthy, as it’s not really sustainable to have such a strong force of energy propelling you forward into action in a constant way. You’ve got to land sometime. Otherwise you get lost in space.
It’s nice to have experienced the high. I’d say I’m at some kind of medium level now. Certainly not a low. I’ve got a plan, and I’m trying to logically work towards it. I do worry that I keep being tempted to just fuck everything up. But that was probably a temporary emotional shock as I adjusted to a necessary crash. Normally, I’m able to at least attempt to play the game well. Hopefully I can get back to that soon while also being happy.
It’s nice to have experienced the high. I’d say I’m at some kind of medium level now. Certainly not a low. I’ve got a plan, and I’m trying to logically work towards it. I do worry that I keep being tempted to just fuck everything up. But that was probably a temporary emotional shock as I adjusted to a necessary crash. Normally, I’m able to at least attempt to play the game well. Hopefully I can get back to that soon while also being happy.