Schmetterling
I saw something nasty in the woodshed!
BIB Will you be having cabbage with that?I've not always been thin, I was obese as a child (14 stone at my largest). I woke up one day and I'd just had enough, so I decided to lose weight MY way. It came off sure enough but just created all sorts of mental cracks to appear. Now it's a battle of attrition, trying to keep my willpower up, not wanting to give in, ever, to anything. Christmas is THE worst time of year for that sort of thing but I always seem to get through. Diet and exercise have just become part of life, you learn to cope with being exhausted, you learn to stop caring about hurting people's feelings when you reject dinner invitations/party invites/refuse to eat their lovely baked food/have to give away gifts of food etc.
Being thin is never enough. Sometimes I want to smother myself in ketchup and eat myself, be done with it all.
BII Please don't!