I know I'm really emotional about this.This is hugely personal to me I've said that I'm a rape victim - at least once - on this thread. It hasn't even fucking been acknowledged. Just ignored, glossed over.
Do you know why I mention it all the time rape comes up? Because I'm trying desperately to tell myself it's not my fault. But really I still think it is, 20 years later. My own stupid fault. And I expect most of you would think that too. If it came up in court - you'd absolutely believe him, not me. You don't even give me the courtesy of acknowledging me, why on earth would you want to hear me?
Every single post on this thread and on every single other rape thread picks over victims' testimony like carrion. It's painful to me and to a lot of the other women on urban who have been raped and sexually assaulted (there's loads of us - what a surprise). This is a place of community, where we should feel safe and cared for, where we have shared histories, and shared futures. A lot of us have met friends, lovers, life partners here. But this thread exposes that feeling of safety for the lie that it is. Men hold us in disdain. We are disbelieved, our testimonies mean nothing, we are sluts and whores.
I'm sick of the echo chamber.