Well, this has been really unpleasant reading. 'Brain dead lesbian vegetable'. Nice. Oh, and noted, Killer B - that surprised me, have to say.
I haven't attacked Methlab ONCE on grounds of anything to do with his mental health or physical or personal characteristics. He has ripped me to shreds in my absence. It has been like trying to communicate with a contrary small child with no memory though - I will say that now. I feel I can, somehow.
I seriously wish I had never offered that critique in the first place. I only did it because I genuinely thought Methlab was interested in writing and developing that writing, and he had repeatedly called for feedback. My experience on the poetry 'scene' has shown me that so many poets have mental health/drug/drink problems (myself included) and that it can be hugely cathartic and life-changing. I offered TONS of advice, answered so many of his questions, offered genuine encouragement and support via PM. I challenge anyone not be angered by his responses in light of that.
For the record, the 'goon' remark was intended to be light-hearted. Has ANYONE ever known me to use 'goon', when there's a perfectly good 'cunt' to offend people with? Does anyone really think 'goon' is an insult?!
Methlab has offered apologies, yes, but as already pointed out in my absence, they are not genuine apologies. How can they be when they are accompanied by a backhanded 'you are also to blame' message? Plus, it was a cut and paste of the third person public 'apology', not a personal one. Call me picky if you like. As for the increasing virulence shown in Methlab's posts...well...I just wish I'd never bothered.
Yes, I DID tell him to shove it up his arse. Know why? Because he did not genuinely apologise, and all that he has said about me just serves to support that belief. This may sound daft, but the whole thing is, so I'll just carry on and say he had also 'liked' every single one of Cheesypoof's posts that seriously laid into my character. This added to my belief that it is not a genuine apology. Now, I don't know if this managed to pass y'all by, but I fell in love a couple of years ago, and also started writing, and have been incredibly happy, and CALM. Friends have actually commented on it, missing my old irate bad-tempered-bastard days. I did lose it with Meth, but that's covered further up in this post ^^ I do still lose my temper, but it's incredibly rare these days - takes something real annoying to bring it out of me.
I apologised to Methlab in my very first PM to him about the initial remark of 'you won't like it'. That's public - it's up on this very thread.
So - I didn't 'insult him first', and I did apologise, genuinely.
This has only kicked off again because he named me in a post, after it had all died down.
Garfield - you are telling Shirl to stop defending a mate. I suggest you follow your own advice.
And that's it really.
) for my brother. I had a little book of rhymes I'd written that I carried around with me. 
