Hi mather, fuck the forces mate, do something that will make you proud of yourself. My best friend was your age when she was diagnosed with Dystonia and really thought her life was over, mostly due to the fact it took a couple of years to find a good specialist that got her meds right. She still struggled on aimlessly for a few years but at age 40 she decided to go to college for a year then she did a part time BSC in Social Work. First year she was at uni most days but year 2 only about once or twcie a month, year 3 and 4 was placements, invaluable for job experience. If you have allready been to college and done a year at uni then you should be familiar with learning, it should set you up nicely to get back into the swing of things. It sounds like with your life experience of caring for family, social work could be right up your street. Caring for family is incredibly hard and and you obviously know that. My friend is now absolutley loving her job, shes part of a reviweing and assesment team, life has purpose and shes never been happier. So although your circumstances feel and look bleak, its never too late. Not trying to push you back into education but, its something to consider. I was in my 30s when i went to uni, after leavin school with no qualifications and drifiting in and ouit of shit jobs for many years, depression almost killed me before i enrolled at college..GL whatever you decide to do. Thers lots of different jobs in social work, my friend works in adult care, and visits a few homes a week then works from home writing up assesments, its not taxing or emotionally draining, she brings sunshine into the elderly residents life with her warm smile and friendly socialble personailty..proper loves it she does, shes here with me this morning recovering after a night and day on the lash yesterday..
