Steel Icarus
we move
I've been summoned by my line manager and the HR advisor to a capability meeting tomorrow (Monday).
I work in a college and the week before last I had a very bad week. HR were being incredibly difficult about releasing me to do union steward training, and in the end two senior managers took me into an empty classroom to tell me I wouldn't be allowed to attend the start of the course (which was subsequently rearranged after my union branch intervened). My supervisor had a go at me for a jokey, off-the-cuff remark I made but she did it in front of several of my colleagues. I'm having mental health trouble with general anxiety disorder overwhelming me at times, and having to be covered while I have counseling and also having time off with ill kids has made some colleagues irritated with me. All this happened over a few days, and in the week with the anniversary of my brother being killed which set off my anxiety in the first place.
So last lesson Friday was I.T. and there was no teacher. It's not my job to supervise or keep order, but I've been instructed in the past to stay in class as usual and provide usual support, which I did for the few students I support in that class. And I'd had enough and couldn't be arsed so I basically turned a blind eye to them playing battle tanks or chess or whatever - and was caught by the head of department (who spent the lesson in his office and went home 20 mins before college ended).
So I'm to take a bollocking for that and also saying I'm feeling like my motivation and mojo is absent at the moment. I feel genuinely sick with worry about going to work tomorrow.
I work in a college and the week before last I had a very bad week. HR were being incredibly difficult about releasing me to do union steward training, and in the end two senior managers took me into an empty classroom to tell me I wouldn't be allowed to attend the start of the course (which was subsequently rearranged after my union branch intervened). My supervisor had a go at me for a jokey, off-the-cuff remark I made but she did it in front of several of my colleagues. I'm having mental health trouble with general anxiety disorder overwhelming me at times, and having to be covered while I have counseling and also having time off with ill kids has made some colleagues irritated with me. All this happened over a few days, and in the week with the anniversary of my brother being killed which set off my anxiety in the first place.
So last lesson Friday was I.T. and there was no teacher. It's not my job to supervise or keep order, but I've been instructed in the past to stay in class as usual and provide usual support, which I did for the few students I support in that class. And I'd had enough and couldn't be arsed so I basically turned a blind eye to them playing battle tanks or chess or whatever - and was caught by the head of department (who spent the lesson in his office and went home 20 mins before college ended).
So I'm to take a bollocking for that and also saying I'm feeling like my motivation and mojo is absent at the moment. I feel genuinely sick with worry about going to work tomorrow.