I pretty certain we were told the budget would be similar to last season (and I'm sure it is) and certainly good enough to challenge for a swift return to National South, even if 2 or 3 other clubs were spending more. A draw on Saturday will mean we have the same number of points (8) with the same playing record (W2 D2 L6) as we did from the first 10 league games last season, but obviously in a lower division, which has to be a worry.
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I go to every home game, but I haven't been away since the opening day of the season. We've now had 18 away league games without a win (4 points) and I've just had enough of that. I reckon it's our worst run of away form since the 2000/01 season, when we didn't have a single away league win, with 6 draws and 15 defeats. That run started with losing the final game of the previous season and ended by winning the first game of the following season, by which time we'd unsurprisingly been relegated, giving a 22 match winless sequence. We'd also gone 11 games without a win before the last win in April 2000, and went another 10 games without a win after ending the run, so 2 wins in 2 years across 45 matches. I went to nearly all of them.
I'm at a loss to explain just how far we've regressed in the past 18 months. We collected precisely 70 points from our last 70 National South matches, so that's a season and a half of clear relegation form, and it's got no better in the short time since then. It just goes to show how easily many years of painstaking progress and development can unravel in a much shorter space of time. We had 8 consecutive seasons of tangible improvement from 2011-2019, inching closer to promotion each time, then we seemed to hit a glass ceiling in National South. The biggest single factor for me is the procrastination over Gavin Rose's position at the end of the 21/22 season, initially sticking with him, then choosing to twist after just 7 games of the new season.
With hindsight, it was rather optimistic to expect an instant challenge for promotion this season. The best we could realistically have hoped for was probably an away semi-final in the play-offs, given that we threw together an entire new squad over the summer. That squad list from the Billericay away game in March 2018 includes 9 players who had been with us since at least the start of the previous season. We had quite a poor start to the 2016/17 season (I recall a 1-4 defeat at home to a Harrow Borough side who were bottom of the table at the time, and a late equaliser to salvage a point away to a poor Leatherhead team) but by the second half of that season we were enjoying a memorable FA Trophy run and eventually finished 3rd before losing the play-off final at Bognor. All of that put us in a position to successfully build towards the triumphant end to the 2017/18 season.
For me the Gavin Rose era began to lose it's magic during the winter months of the first National South season, when we abandoned the tiki-taka game for a more pragmatic approach. We made a pretty good start to that first season, with 21 points (W6 D3 L6) from the first 15 games, despite having a weaker squad than the one that got us promoted. Ironically things started to go wrong around the time we were cleared to return from exile. I reckon other coaches just worked us out, and we no longer had greater individual quality in the big boys league as we did in the Isthmian, and after losing at Eastbourne on New Years Day there was the drastic cull of experienced players including Carew, Ming, Kargbo and Tomlin. We recovered to finish in a respectable mid-table position, but for the following season we recruited cynical old hands like Ijaha and Smith, who were the antithesis of how we'd always played under Gavin in previous seasons. I can't believe Gavin was entirely comfortable with such a change of philosophy, and I suspect that was a big factor in his inability to ever fashion a team that consistently looked good enough to challenge at the top end of the division, or even looked like a cohesive group with a shared sense of purpose.
I must admit I'm pretty disillusioned right now. It feels like we're not only losing but serving up a poor spectacle, although losing most games is generally less entertaining than winning most games regardless of the aesthetic quality of the football. The very first Gavin Rose season (2009/10) consisted of lots of pretty passing and possession play in the middle third, little threat up front, and little resilience under the slightest pressure at the back. We didn't win a home league game until December and there was a 10 match sequence in the new year with only 3 goals scored, with a 1-0 win delivering the only points. It was one of the most depressing seasons I can remember, as average attendance slumped below 200 for the only time excluding the ground sharing season at Tooting in 1991/2. Our highest attendance of the whole season was only 274 and several Saturday league games were below 150, while we were knocked out of the London Senior Cup by South Kilburn in front of just 59 at Champion Hill, the only time we've been beaten by a second tier county league side in my 45 years of support. I was mainly turning up as a prelude to having a few beers with friends afterwards, with the match almost feeling like an irrelevance. Within a couple of years, under the same manager we'd gone from one extreme to the other. I didn't want to miss a single game, it began to feel like only a matter of time before we were promoted, a feeling that endured right the way through a sequence of near misses and two actual promotions until we reached National South in 2018. Anyone who began supporting the club around the start of that period has been spoilt. The previous 30 years consisted mostly of lower mid-table mediocrity with the odd exciting season, a few successful relegation battles, two relegations and one promotion to get back to where we'd started. That's not to say we should all just shrug our shoulders and accept that we have to spend another prolonged period in the doldrums. The club was very different in those days with all sorts of mitigating factors, whereas now it's much more financially viable with the advantage of the largest supporter base in the league. At the very least we ought to be where we were 10 years ago as perennial, if not always successful, promotion candidates in the Isthmian Premier Division. However we find ourselves back at the beginning of the redevelopment cycle, with a new manager who may be capable of building something that endures, or may ultimately depart without having achieved any progress.