This is not a vote in a vacuum, its one with ukip style right in the ascendancy and set to feel justified to act off the back of a leave vote.
Much as I'd find it hard to see why I should vote
for the EU, I will admit that this is my main niggling doubt.
steeplejack suggested elsewhere (what he admits is a longshot) that in the event of Brexit, UKIP may be sated and dissolve. That'd be great, but I'm doubtful. It's more likely that a UKIP-inflected Tory right will be newly invigorated - not that Leave
is a confidence vote in the UKIPpy right, but that because of the way the "debate" has been covered in the media and presented by the official campaigns, a Leave vote may be presented as such. Let's be honest here: that's a worry.
I've felt very disconnected from this referendum. In real life here, nobody is talking about it. I had thought it was a phony war, whipped up by the media. But over the last couple of days I've been reading reports like that of
John Harris in the Guardian. He paints a picture that I don't recognise, where people
are engaged. Not in the official campaigns, but as a conduit for their dissatisfaction. I think the difference must be that I'm in Scotland: people here really
aren't attaching their dissatisfaction - or interest - to this issue (indeed, if polls are correct, the majority here are for Remain, though they're not necessarily as enthusiastic about the institutions of the EU as sometimes depicted).
ska invita and others draw parallels and differences with the independence referendum. I think the indyref and GE15 are the points at which that same dissatisfaction was expressed here. Those outlets weren't available in Stoke, Merthyr, Birmingham and Manchester (visited by John Harris). Mrs la rouge's family are from the Stoke area, and we visit regularly. It's true that those visits are the only times anyone has discussed the Brexit referendum with me. Maybe that's not just coincidence after all.
I'm still most likely to abstain, because this for me has been a big nothing. Turning on the TV all I see is a spat between neoliberal A and neoliberal B. That's not my fight. But looking at the dissatisfaction described in Stoke, Merthyr, Birmingham and Manchester, I recognise that as my fight. Not the conduit, but the dissatisfaction. If that dissatisfaction is interpreted by the media and the political elite as a vote of confidence in a UKIPpy Tory right, then we have a problem. (There is a parallel though different problem in Scotland, which readers of the Scotland boards can discover for themselves).
I'm thinking aloud here. These aren't fully formed thoughts, because I've given this referendum very little attention.